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Another heavenly sign that gives me comfort to know it was Gods time.  This October 15th, 2026 our brother would have turned 44.

Our family celebrated this milestone by inviting fiends and family for dinner.  At the end of the night, and only because (we ran out of food), I sat down and did a head count...  Lemme see, a 22lb Brisket... let's see how many people actually came... after counting twice...  and counting once more... I realized we had a total of 44 guest that night.  44 people that knew my brother...  

44 guests for my brother's 44th birthday... 4-4     Thank you for the blessings little brother!!!!!

I want to believe this is a sign that you are alright and just like you would calculate your chess moves...  you are finding ways to reveal yourself to us earthlings.  Again... Coincidence... or not?  I don't believe in coincidences, I do believe in God.  Thank you brother for bringing me close to the lord and for continuing to shine your light over us.  I love you to the moon and far beyond.

A Toda Madre

Vive como vivio Edgard 

"A Toda Madre"

Mr Always goofy when you least expected it

On April 2, 2026

Edgard came down to tell us all about his trip to Zacatecas.  

He sat down in the grey recliner that we have in the living room and took off his plaid shirt.  I teased him about going bare arms... "Wow, you exposing a bit of skin today..." to which he responded with a witty laugh and started hugging his white arms as to conceal them (he always covering them arms with long sleeve shirts).

He talked about everything from going to the fields with our cousin Javi, to partying at the fair and even going to church where he saw "Edgar" the boy from el rebote who he was so proud of.

He did not stay for dinner but wanted to say goodbye to the kids, I gave him a hug and went to call the kids (who as teenagers, usually hide in their room).  This day he said his goodbyes, kids came out to give him a hug and Tere pointed out the Monster he left on the floor.  "ooh, can't forget that".  

I gave him a second hug that day as he left and we laughed about getting two hugs that day... 

"Hey, another hug for the road".  Not knowing that would be the last hug we would give eachother.

Oh boy, I miss that guy so much.      

 

Audacity

Four months since you've been gone my love, I can only say I wish to one day live life with that Intense Audacity that everyone spoke of when they spoke of you.  You were by far the daring audacious man that we admired.  Every minute was lived with a purpose and you did not waste any time living.

I love you my baby brother and miss you every single day.  Four months and it feels like I just saw and spoke with you yesterday...

3 Months since you've been gone

There's no day nor hour that we don't miss you brother.  

Some days are worst than others, however, days like today, when we visit the Fullerton Loop, the pain feels a little deeper.

Thank you for every second of our conversations, I love, LOVE you!

San Cristobal

Edgard was not very religious, he believed in doing good, treating everyone with respect, he was generous, and stayed away from gossip and other peoples business.  

Despite this, he carried this prayer to fulfill mothers request.

 

Since his passing, myself and some of our families relationship with God has strengthened significantly.   

I love you my baby brother, thank you for continuing to teach me so much about life and God.

Two Month

Today felt deep, two months since you've been gone and the pain felt worst than yesterday.  I won't ever have the chance to tell you I love you in person.  I wish I'd held you tighter on April 2nd when we hugged goodbye.  

Viewing tomorrow

The day finally came when we start to give this dark chapter of our life some sort of closure.  We've gone over 40 days without you already and I still can't believe it.  It feels like a dream and my mind has been in a terrible fog for weeks.  I know we have some of your belongings and your phone, yet because we still have not seen you, it still feels unreal.